Its a sad state

Im sure you all dont care, but i need to get it out there and let everyone know. I have a problem with solitaire. I seem to be playing it alot recently. Its bad. and to make it funner i use the vegas scoring system so it is more challengin to win and your score accumulates (or decumulates) but mostly i play it at night, or when im waiting for something. It is good because its not like a big game (WarcraftM, Rebellion, etc.) that takes time to load and save and exit. It is just a good thing. The weird thing is that ive never really been a solitaire person. Sure i would play occationally it but i like Free Cell better (currently 18-9 with best streaks of win: 8 lose: 3). It is more challenging and a thinker but you kind of have to be in the mood. and if you leave it you automatically lose. and minsweeper, once you beat the first level in like 10 seconds there is little point trying any more. and intermediate is long and hard and annoying. and i dont think ive ever beat expert. maybe some day. but you really want to how sad my life is? Often when i close my eyes, I SEE SOLITAIRE. i know i think i need help. It not accually clear, but i can kind of see colours and i sorta think they range form about 4 to 9 usually. sometimes less. and they are mostly on the right side of the 'screen'. wow. i really need help. i think tonight is going to be a free cell night, unless i start talking to people on mess.
Ian